Journaling reads...
It has been ten days
since the new year
rolled in. I have spent
a lot of time setting goals.
Looking at goals.
Thinking about goals.
Making a list of steps I will
need to take if I want to
reach my goals.
The goal that feels most
important to me just
happens to be the goal
that is going to be the hardest
to reach.
LOSING WEIGHT
Losing weight is not just one single goal.
It means a lifestyle change.
Different eating habits.
Being more active.
Completely changing the way I do things.
When I think about it I feel so
OVERWHELMED
I almost declare defeat
before even beginning.
I feel afraid.
Afraid of change.
Afraid of failing.
Afraid of NOT failing.
WHAT??
Why am I afraid of NOT failing?
That doesn’t even make any sense.
But I am.
I think that is my biggest fear
of all.
The fear of not failing
makes me feel completely
TERRIFIED!!!
I wonder how
I am ever going
to do this...